You betta blow that sh**t out

I first heard that term from Jamie Foxx during one of his stand ups. He explained that he was using the term as a metaphor for not "holding in" sh**t. You know that type of shit that causes you stress, anger, anxiety, guilt, frustration, sadness, bitterness, hopelessness, etc... ? That s**t will kill you. You gotta learn to blow that s**t out... When I think about the access s**t that I allow to occupy mental space in my head...it's scary. I have been waiting to exhale a lot of s**t over the last year... primarily guilt for me. Someone very close to me recently reminded me that my feelings and happiness were most important. This statement conflicted with the way of thinking that I had developed during my 4 year, 364 day marriage to a devout Christian, who influenced me to believe that even when your not happy,God wants you to be content. It has been over a year since my divorce and I am just learning to blow out the guilt s**t left over from it, not realizing how much it was choking me. I'm breathing a lot better these days, but I'm still having a hard time learning to bask in my happiness, when it causes someone else pain.